January 2010
I feel so weak. I feel apathetic. I don’t have much to say. I still love a girl that stopped loving me the day she left me. I don’t know if I miss her, or if I’m just curious. We are as unfinished as unfinished business gets. There was so much that we both had to say to each other. When you tried, I walked out. When I tried, you didn’t care.
Advice to Depressed Self: The girl you’re still in love with isn’t coming back. She doesn’t want to be with you. She may have loved you, but you guys are over for a reason. Take your head out of the clouds and look at yourself. You are pathetic. You feel sorry for yourself all the time. You blame everything on a break up that happened 3 Goddamned months ago. Stop crying and smile...
i love living. i’ve come so far in the past few months. i was willing to take my own life. love took me over. i let it consume me. it won’t happen again. life has beautiful ways of working itself out.
Is that your girlfriend ? I really like her … I’m talking only for a night I wouldn’t wife her .
And I don’t wanna hear you tell yourself That these feelings are in the past You know it doesn’t mean they’re off the shelf Because pain’s built to last Everybody sails alone But we can travel side by side Even if you fail You know that no one really minds Come over here lady
